Friday, May 22, 2015
I AM AN AFRICAN SPEECH - 8 MAY 1996. Thabo Mbeki. Celebrate Africa on Africa Day 25 May
AFRICA Day- 25 May 2015
Its Africa Day on Monday,25 May and what better way to reflect than through this powerful piece of something like this? This man here was just on another tip!
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Coming Out-confessions of a writer
Coming out-confessions of a writer
Writing pours in me waters of
fulfillment, lights up a fire in me, engages me and challenges me, why make up
excuses to do something that offers me that?
I think it will help me to start this
piece by a confession; I have long neglected my gift. And this goes without any
reasonable excuse. Some of the “excuses” for my negligence have really been the
good, old and tired excuses; I don’t have enough time; or the extra afternoon
classes with the children in my community on Mondays and Wednesdays take up
most of my time, that is minus two days of my week every week, coupled with
ministry commitments; bible studies with the children on Tuesdays, Saturday
services and Sunday school on Sunday mornings, that is another three days out
of my week because all these assignments require intensive preparation. Then I
have my degree, which I do via correspondence at the University Of South
Africa, this requires me to draw and stick to an intensive study plan since it
is far more demanding to study via distance learning than through a residential
university. I also have my own personal relationships that need my attention
and above everything else I also need to always be committed to availing myself
to spend time with God in solitude.
Armed with a list of “excuses”, I led myself
into thinking that I really did not have time for this gift.
The truth was that I was actually
making excuses for my own laziness and defending my own lack of self
management.
But then as I began writing this
piece, I also realized that there were also a plethora of hidden and secretly
buried issues of fear and lack of confidence in my writing. I secretly and
unconsciously avoided exposing my work with the fear of being judged and the
fear of not delivering on my own self imposed standards of excellence. In my
own mind, my writing could not pass the quality tests I have set. My thinking
tank was filled with wrong thoughts or beliefs that interfered greatly with my
writing process and ultimately put out the fire in me.
I wanted to write from my ego. I
wanted the reader to perceive me as intelligent; I wanted to be well versed in
every topic under the sun. I wanted to
write like the likes of Chimamanda Adichie Ngozi, Chinua Achebe, and the late
Bessie Head. After reading books such as Half of the Yellow Sun, Things fall
apart, The Madonna of Excelsior, I would secretly mimic their style and follow
in their ideas and pattern of thought. All these dimmed my light, drained my
appetite to write, dampened my voice, derailed my progress, impede my growth and
did absolutely nothing for my gift!
As I was, a time ago in a space of
prayer and meditation, I experienced a renaissance in my spirit and a
breakthrough in my mind that stirred up a new hunger to write. To write without
fear and reservation. Take responsibility for this gift. To experience this
gift and share it with the world as authentically as I can.
As in prayer and meditation I was
awakened to write, to commit to the gift, to be true to the giver of the gift
and allow him to be my source of inspiration, I hope this piece helps you
realize how important it is to discover and pursue your talent at all costs
because we all owe it to the creator to fully embrace what he has freely given
to us. And in that we know he will be glorified.
With this, its 11:18 pm CAT, as I wrap
up this piece, I’m pleased to announce that nothing in my schedule has changed,
I still have the same responsibilities and commitments I mentioned in the start
of this piece. I am the difference; someone taught me that in my 20’s , my greatest asset is time and we
are all given 24 hours to decide what we do with it, no less or more to any
one.
See you later…
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